In Child No. 182, filmmaker Camilla Roos turns the lens inward to explore the earliest years of her own life, spent drifting through Finland's child protection system in the 1960s and 70s. Over the course of this 50-minute documentary, we explore the emotional landscape of a child trying to reach stability within an inherently unstable situation. It’s a deeply personal and engaging portrait, one that is all the more intriguing as it is of the filmmaker herself.

Born in Sweden in 1964 to a mother struggling with mental illness and a father battling alcoholism, Roos was quickly absorbed into Finland's social services. From there, her life became a patchwork of summer camps, foster homes, and brief attempts to return to her biological family - each move documented in meticulous municipal records.

What makes Child No. 182 stand out is its archival nature: the film is narrated by Roos herself, who revisits these records as an adult, reading them aloud as if decoding the story of someone else. These documents are paired with stunning 8mm archival footage, creating a visual impression of her fragmented childhood. Adults are noticeably absent from most of these frames, giving the children center stage and allowing their presence, their energy, and their innocence to speak volumes.

The result is both beautiful and haunting. The grainy, washed-out texture of the 8mm film gives the story a dreamlike - or perhaps memory-like - quality. It feels like we’re dipping in and out of recollections, some clear, others blurred, but all deeply felt. The footage doesn’t serve as illustration so much as emotional counterpoint: while the official documents provide the cold, factual structure of Camilla’s journey, the visuals offer the warmth, confusion, and vulnerability of childhood itself.

Interspersed are personal anecdotes that she recalls as well from her childhood. At one point in the film, she says: “I had a recurring nightmare as a child. It is winter and I’m standing behind a woman on the runners of a kicksled. Suddenly I fall off. The woman doesn’t notice, and carries on. I am left behind, alone in the snow.” She then continues on reading more quotes from documents, but these small moments Roos adds helps us really feel what she had gone through.

Despite the inherently heavy content she is covering, Roos is not overly sentimental in her approach. She doesn’t tell us how to feel. Instead, she presents the information and the images with quiet confidence, trusting the audience to absorb their emotional weight. That restraint is one of the film’s greatest strengths. It never feels like it’s manipulating us, and that makes its moments of tenderness and pain hit even harder.

The narration, delivered with a delicate balance of detachment and emotion, carries much of the film’s emotional weight. It's introspective and searching, yet grounded - an adult voice trying to make sense of a childhood that was often confusing and fragmented. For some viewers, especially those accustomed to more fast-paced or visually dynamic documentaries, Child No. 182 might come off as slow or uneventful. But to dismiss it on those grounds would be to overlook its quiet power.

Ultimately, Child No. 182 is not just a story about one girl in the system. It's about all children whose lives become defined by paperwork, whose stories are told through reports and signatures rather than memories and relationships. It invites us to look at how we archive trauma, how we make sense of our own pasts, and how we try to find ourselves when faced with situations that seem insurmountable.

Beautifully done, sensitively executed, and offered rather than imposed, I can conclude that Roos’ film is a poignant, personal, and political work.

Child No. 182 screens at the 2025 New Jersey International Film Festival on Thursday, June 5th.  The film will be Online for 24 Hours. Tickets are available for purchase here.

The 30th annual New Jersey International Film Festival will be taking place between May 30-June 13, 2025. The Festival will be a hybrid one as we will be presenting it online as well as doing select in-person screenings at Rutgers University. All the films will be available virtually via Video on Demand for 24 hours on their show date. VOD start times are at 12 Midnight Eastern USA. Each General Admission Ticket or Festival Pass purchased is good for both the virtual and the in-person when both are offered. Plus, we are very proud to announce that acclaimed singer-songwriter Mike Kovacs will be doing an audio-visual concert on Friday, June 13 at 7PM! The in-person screenings and the Mike Kovacs concert will be held in Voorhees Hall #105/Rutgers University, 71 Hamilton Street, New Brunswick, NJ beginning at 5PM or 7PM on their show date.  General Admission Ticket=$15 Per Program; Festival All Access Pass=$120; In-Person Only Student Ticket=$10 Per Program.

For more info go here: https://2025newjerseyinternationalfilmfestival.eventive.org/welcome